Pretty miserable last couple of days but now trying to convince myself it was quick for Jenny. The excitement and adrenalin rush for her hopefully was too much as she chased off after her yipping offspring. Heartfelt thanks to everyone who have been out on the hill since she went missing. Possibly though daylight hours there have been dogs and people looking for any sign of her but to no avail. Maybe just maybe but I am now reflecting she had a good life and in return gave us lots of pleasure. We looked after a dog called Talisker for good friends as they left Applecross for city life and he was a great dog. After he was gone the big miss I felt was realising that there was no welcoming thump of tail on floor when he heard me coming down in the morning. The silence was heartrendingly sad. With Jenny there are too many triggers and while it is great to have Eilidh and Dougal they are the constant memories. Over time they will be how she will always be around. Looking through a few photos of her and there are one or two despite Dougal being the media tart that he is. Weather has been pretty indifferent allowing me not to bother too much about going to sea. Change from last week complete with temperature, rain and breeze all telling me that autumn is kicked in.
One area that Jenny led me to is Toscaig river.
The last time I was in this area was a trip up the edge with Sam when we were assessing the potential for hydro, this around six years ago. I went up to the bend and walked down to river itself as I knew there was rain forecast and wanted to check before the levels rose. We have had the driest spell and the river is low.
The ground surrounding the river is bleak undulating moorland while the river has cut a beautiful vein through this part of the peninsula.
On a more local level the Filling Station refurbishment is underway….again with DNS Forecourts in the form of Simon and fellow worker.
I went up the road to see what was going on and it was quite noticeable the difference in quality of units.
The installed units looked a decade old. After a few shots it was back down the road, dropping off my last prawns at the Inn on the way, a kip, and then back out for another look for Jenny. This time the weather had closed in and had to stay on the path, not wanting a search and rescue initiated.
Today was the other way around. Up the road in the morning to check out progress of the refurb. A fine sight to see was the loading up of the old useless units into the back of the wagon never to be seen here again.
Going well although a bit of a panic when Simon drove in and first thing he noticed was the red box was down and unwired ready for taking away by the Gilbarco boys.
No Filling Station reopening without it so “gentle” discussion and it was put back up. the panels for the front of the pumps were”missing”, well they were down at the schoolhouse as some lovely kids art were on them and we had no intention of them going south. Another”gentle” discussion and they are staying here. Have no problem with the workers on the ground but I would find it seriously depressing having to defend or work for such a cr*p company. Do not think our local boys were very impressed by them and that does not bode well for their sales up this way. On schedule to open tomorrow as planned
and the forecast means I will be able to attend training planned for Thursday although hoping more volunteers come forward to take over some tasks. So it was another sad trip down the road to see if there was any signs but nothing. Came back from the river
and quartered the ground where she was last seen, bleak and barren,
reflecting my feelings.
Just calling out her name was heartbreaking and then listening to the silence. I am quite shocked at the depth of emotion. Possibly the long summer, tired, last week’s disappointment have all contributed. I think I said goodbye to a beautiful dog this afternoon. One day I will enjoy looking at these photos but now it hurts so bad.